Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Conflicting Principles

Yo yo yo,

Alright, it's time for another posting purely fueled from my pissed-off attitude. As I have grown older (I won't say necessarily wiser), my reactions to incidents and beliefs to life have transformed. For the better or worse (It's all personal opinion), I have progressed into a more pacifistic individual, but there are times when I find myself wanting to lash out. This is one of those moments.

"Do unto others as you'd have them do unto you." Known as the Golden Rule this guideline to social interaction has permeated throughout many different beliefs. In essence this phrase is a terrific way to govern one's actions but what does one do when you are constantly wronged and used?

With my growing personal beliefs I have slowly started to realize that I don't put up with repetitive abusive behavior. When I feel that someone is abusing my kindness, I typically go bipolar on them. Sometimes, my response to this is, "I just want to punch them in the face." Not that I ever could bring myself to such a violent response, that phrase just best expresses how upset I am.

Now, to the subject of this rant. Without going into too much detail that exposes this person, I'll briefly summarize the situation with "hypotheses." Let's say someone has used resources and possessions without any form of consideration or respect. In summary, let's say that aside from emotional damages, the grand total comes close to around several thousand dollars over the past few months. Now, my conflicting question is: "Is there a point where 'Doing unto others...' loses its purpose?"

To combat this phrase I'll use another common saying, "Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me." So, if one's behavior never changes should I thus adapt my interaction with them in order to protect myself or do I continue to present me and my assets vulnerable to such arrogant narcissism? Even with my Christian beliefs, I have difficulty allowing myself to constantly being used. Ultimately, can't one tie such neglect to vandalism? So many conflicting views, thankfully I don't have to deal with this issue. Those close to me do.

Everything up until this point has been just angered ramblings while looking for some justification for the way I feel. Unfortunately, writing things down haven't helped me deal and I don't feel like writing much more. Thus here's my verdict to the situation: I'm still going to say, "I'd punch them in the face." They're just lucky they don't have to deal with me.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Creative Juices

In the past few weeks, I have been following several webcomics along with reading quite a bit. With all this reading my brain has started to think of how awesome it would be to tell a story. To create a plot line and allow the reader to take a ride with my characters. I'm not the most inventive or creative guy. Quite honestly, my first B in high school came from art class, but perhaps that was calling upon a different medium for my ideas to flow and my ideas are too linear to be put in picture. That's what I'll keep telling myself as I toy with my idea for a side project.

Now, as to what I want to do. Erik and I have had several discussions on a story that we could add to the Batman universe. He would handle the artwork and I would work with the text and story. We have actually written up a plot line but are now having to add the other details and even smaller details. I don't know if we'll ever get around to finishing it, but it was a good start for me I believe.

Another idea I had was to actually write a short story, but my grammar and writing prowess is nowhere close to being up to par with that idea. Also, I have ideas for stories but once again it's the details that hold me up. The character development, descriptions, and dialogue trip me up whenever I even try to start the actual writing process.

I have a slight fantasy that someday I could become famous. Mix this with the realization that I have next to no chance of ever becoming a house-hold name, I have toyed with the idea of writing a script for a show or movie. Drawing off stories heard or seen, I would love to portray an accurate view of college. Anytime I watch something based on college, it's so far twisted from the truth that I actually struggle to enjoy it. I'd love to bring something to the media that is a better portrayal of some of the best years of everyone's life, but I have no idea where to start with writing a script. Hmmm... Probably should google that.

Finally - and probably most realistically - I wouldn't mind starting a webcomic or comic in general. Without having to do too much character development, I could introduce people and let their actions or expressions explain their personality. There's never need for a large elaborate story. No need for smart dialogue. I don't technically need to have a plot. These awesome tidbits have gotten me seriously considering writing a comic, but alas, my lack of artistic talent haunts me once again. What's a comic without the pictures? Also, how can I make my comic more original than others? These are the two damning questions that I can't seem to figure out yet.

Just thought I'd update you briefly in my life. Nothing of great importance but I thought that if I'm lucky enough I could possibly get some juices flowing from writing everything out or better yet maybe some opinions from those few that read this blog. Hope the summer is treating everyone as awesome as it's treating me! Peace yo!